I try not to live in the past but I Do.



I try not to live in the past but I Do.

Even though past doesn't bring make me happy, I do live in them. 

Somehow I learned to live without what I want the most; and to live in the pain.

I smile a lot may sometime like a mad man. Even now I'm smiling.


How can I fear past and relieve them every single second?

It's not like I love past; it may be cause I still blame myself.

When I go back, I see that all I saw was fake.

There was nothing true in my life.

How did I defined truth.?

May be all of that are true and I didn't saw the truth all I saw is what I wanna.

I...

I'm wrong. 

Even now when I'm walking away from past. It's chasing me.

It doesn't wanna know. It just wanna happen.

I try not to live in the past but I Do.